Most of my adult life has been spent either as a teacher or training to be a teacher. The new school year has begun, and I find myself outside of the classroom. However, I think that God has provided me with a new kind of classroom, one in which I’ve become the student and my almost-three-year-old is now my teacher. Though I’ve only officially been a stay-at-home-mom for two full days, I am already finding myself learning valuable lessons from my little boy. In the past, my posts have mainly focused on how God speaks to me as I read through a specific book of the Bible. Recently, my morning quiet times have focused on reading Ezra, but I’ve decided to change it up a little. I will post about how God is using my toddler to teach me a few things. I’m not sure how long God will lay these on my heart, but for the time being, I’ll share them with you.
Lesson #1 – God’s Power
To say that our kindergartner struggled the first two days of school is a bit of an understatement. Both years of preschool, we dealt with separation anxiety; after several weeks (or months) and many strategies, we finally conquered preschool drop-off both years. As we prepped him for the first day of all-day kindergarten, we created a special handshake, visited the classroom and teacher, practiced drop-off at home, and prayed for courage for Camden. Even with all of our preparation, I was skeptical. Apparently, with good reason. The first two mornings included not just a few tears, but bawling and wailing (maybe even a little kicking). After the second morning, my strength faded. As I left the school listening to my little boy crying behind me, my tears joined his, though my cries didn’t echo down the hallway like his. Kemper (my toddler) and I sat in the van as I tried to compose myself before heading to the grocery store. The short conversation between a teary mom in the driver’s seat and a sweet toddler in his car seat behind her went like this:
Kemper: Mommy why you sad?
Me: Because Camden’s having a tough day at school, and I can’t fix it.
Kemper: Mommy, I have power; I fix it.
At first, I thought, “Well, then, little boy, put that power to use and go help your brother.” The whole situation had left me feeling quite powerless. But as I sat there smiling to myself through my tears (which proves that he does indeed have super power), I realized that we all have power in the tough times. God’s power lives within each of us, and he can fix it. The entire weekend before school we had been telling Camden that God would help him and we prayed for courage, and when things didn’t go the way I wanted, I needed a reminder that God’s power is greater than any struggle we face. As I looked for verses about God’s power, 1 Corinthians 2:5 showed up in my search. “…so that your faith might not rest on human wisdom, but on God’s power.” I had been relying on human wisdom to get Camden (and me) through these first days of school. Human wisdom led us to practice and create a handshake and talk about the first day with Camden, but only God in his power and his timing can produce a tear-free (or reduced-tear) drop-off. (Morning three, by the way, was a reduced-tear morning.)
How many other times in my life have I relied on human wisdom or rationalizing to guide my decisions and actions? Really, I need to be relying on God’s power in my life. We question why things are happening the way they are, why things don’t seem to work out for us but seem to go perfectly for everyone else, or why our plans always seem to fall through. Sometimes in life, things just don’t make sense – at least not human sense. It is during these times that we need to be reminded (even by a toddler) that we are not to rely on human wisdom but on God’s power. What is happening in your life right now that is making you feel powerless? Does it seem that no amount of human wisdom can rationalize why things are the way they are? Do you feel like things just don’t make sense? We must have faith that God’s power is ultimate and working in every situation. It is because we don’t understand that we must have faith. Maybe he’s bringing us to a situation where human wisdom doesn’t make sense so that we can see the greatness of his power.
Lord, thank you for your amazing power even when we don’t understand it. Help us to rely on your power and not our own human wisdom when we face difficult situations. Show us how to let our faith rest on your power.